That was Frances Elaine Campione's response when a judge asked her if she comprehended the first degree murder charges against her in a Barrie courtroom on Thursday.
But few others can understand what may have prompted the mother of one-year-old Sophia and three-year-old Serena to allegedly kill her kids in a fourth floor apartment building 24 hours earlier.
While the answers to how the girls died are expected to come when autopsy reports performed in Toronto are released, the factors that could lead any mother to such a terrible crime may never be completely clear.
As the province continues to reel from the terrible tragedy, some are expressing deep sympathy for the accused.
She was involved in a bitter custody break-up with her husband, accusing him of assaulting her and her eldest daughter
There were reports she had become depressed following the birth of Serena, and sometimes dropped the girls off at their grandparents' house because she couldn't deal with them.
The little girls had been living with their father Leo and his parents in Woodbridge before moving in with their mother in Barrie a month ago. Children's Aid Society workers had been to the apartment twice.
The C.A.S. has since filed an incident report with the Child and Family Services Ministry at Queen's Park, but spokesperson Mary Ballentyne warns her organization can't talk about a specific case that's before the courts.
"Obviously something happened to these children," is all she'll confirm. "So something wasn't right."
There are questions about whether the C.A.S. knew of ongoing problems and didn't act.
One friend, who has stuck with Campione despite the accusations against her, insists the woman she knew was a tortured soul who had nowhere to turn.
"They were beautiful children," the friend, who requested anonymity, agrees. "And they're with God now, and hopefully Elaine can find some peace."
Neighbours recall seeing Campione pushing the little girls in a double stroller at a nearby garden. The scene has since become a shrine to the lost children, with a growing pile of flowers dedicated to their memory.
Police have been having trouble getting the warrants they need to get into the apartment to begin the hunt for what actually happened inside.
"There's legalities that have to take place in that most importantly we have to get search warrants," explains Barrie Police Sgt. Dave Goodbrand. "The accused has an expectation of privacy in that apartment."
The irony of Campione's court appearance isn't lost on her friend. It came on the same day she was scheduled to go before a judge over her custody hearing. Instead, she faced a different magistrate for a much more serious reason.
"She was in court today. It wasn't family court," her friend responds, getting emotional. "How sad Elaine. I'm so sorry."
Campione's next court date is Wednesday, but she won't be there in person. She's asked not to be brought back to the building but will appear from prison by a video hook-up.
Sometimes it's post partum depression. Sometimes it's outright desperation. And sometimes, it's extreme psychoses that leads a mother to commit the ultimate sin of killing her own children.
It's happened in Canada all too often in the past few years. Here's a recap.
Katrina Effert, 20
: Found guilty of murdering her newborn baby and throwing the body over a neighbour's fence. Two expert witnesses testified that the young Alberta mother suffered from a "disturbed mind" after secretly giving birth on April 14, 2005 in the basement of her parent's home.
Xuan Peng, 34:
Faces a second-degree murder charge for the bathtub drowning of her four-year-old autistic daughter. On July 12, 2004, David Chen, father of Jia Jia (Scarlet) Chen, found his daughter submerged in a bathtub in his Toronto home.
Melissa Blair Audy, 23:
Charged with second-degree murder in the death of her three-year-old daughter Venecia Shanelle Audy in Bowsman, in western Manitoba. Police said they were told the girl fell down the stairs in front of her home.
Louise Desnoyers, 48:
Was admitted to a Vermont state hospital to determine if she is capable of standing trial for the death of her eight-year-old son. She allegedly tried to kill herself after her son drowned in Lake Champlain on Aug. 15.
Charlie Rae Lincoln, 20:
Charged in Vancouver in July for the second-degree murder of her toddler daughter, two-and-a-half-year-old Hope. She died of an apparent stabbing in the coastal B.C. community of Bella Bella.
Treena Claire Hannigan, 33:
Police believe she drugged her four-year-old son Davin Riley Hannigan on April 6, 2005, at a downtown Moncton hotel, then smothered him. She then jumped to her death from a fifth-floor window.
Sivananthi Elango, 30:
Charged with first-degree murder in March after she was discovered in the bathtub of the family's upscale Markham, Ont., home with the bodies of two-year-old Renu and three-month-old Movlika.
Shirley Turner, 42:
Drowned herself and her 13-month-old son Zachary Turner when she walked into the ocean near Conception Bay South, N.L., on Aug. 18, 2003. She was facing extradition to the U.S. to stand trial for the 2001 murder of Andrew Bagby, Zachary's father.