The 911 tapes of calls between crazed gunman Charles Roberts and authorities have been made public and they reveal a cold and desperate man who had nothing to lose and seemed determined to go out his own way.
Roberts is the 32-year-old milk truck driver who stunned the world last week when he entered the one room building, ordered all the males out and then shot 10 young girls execution style. Five have since died of their injuries.
The tapes reveal why authorities had so much trouble trying to establish a link with Roberts, who simply wasn't interested in talking to them.
"I just took, uh, 10 girls hostage and I want everybody off the property or, or else," Roberts told the emergency dispatcher.
"Don't try to talk me out of it, get them all off the property now," he warned the operator about the police presence minutes into the crisis.
When the operator tried to transfer him to local authorities, he made an ominous threat. "No, you tell them and that's it," he's heard saying. "Right now or they're dead in two seconds."
When the operator made the transfer anyway, Roberts was blunt. "Two seconds," he responded. "That's it."
The line then went dead.
But Roberts wasn't finished making his final calls. One of the last went to his stunned wife, who then called 911 herself.
"My name is Marie Roberts, my husband just called me and said that he wasn't coming home and that the police were there and that he left notes for myself and my children and I'm worried that he tried to commit suicide somewhere," she noted, her words tumbling out.
But she claimed her husband never told her where he was or the exact reason why he was committing such a monstrous act.
"He was upset about something that had happened twenty years ago, and he said he was getting revenge for it, I don't think he was getting revenge on another person, I'm worried that maybe he was trying to commit suicide," Marie Roberts advised the dispatcher.
She then told a state police trooper about the notes she'd found.
"Like, the thought of not my children, not seeing them grow up, like, let's see, uh, I'm not even sure, here it is, my daughter Abigail I want you to know that I love you and I'm sorry I couldn't be here to watch you grow up, that's how the notes start," she read.
The letters talked about having molested a pair of family members two decades earlier and 'dreaming' he would do it again. Police have since interviewed relatives and have been unable to find any evidence that the sexual assaults ever took place.
Roberts also stated he was angry "at God" for taking his premature daughter's life just 30 minutes after the child had been born.
But he never gave any hint of what he was planning until the day he carried out his awful crime, then turned the gun on himself.